you won't relent until you have it all.

I have started three different entries for this week and I am just now finally sitting down to really write it.

"I'll set you as a seal upon my heart, as a seal upon my arm"
There is no where that God looks and does not proclaim it as His.
I don't want to talk about you like you're not in the room. I want to look right at you, I want to sing right to you.
You won't relent until you have it all, my heart is yours.

I thank you, God, for being a God who does not relent. Who continues to pursue us, those He loves and cherishes. Wednesday, God released me from 17 years of oppression. I began to realize and understand the vastness and greatness of God's kingdom. He has always watched my soul, protected it, saved me from peril. I just serve an A-W-E-S-O-M-E God!

This week's speaker and I got to talking when he decided to help me wash dishes and I told him all about my life and he asked, "Have you had one person in your life who has been a positive constant?" and the answer is no. The look on his face was a mix: somewhere between sheer disbelief and deep sorrow, but for me it was the beginning of the second breakthrough of being here.

The first layer was repentance right before I came and when I got here, forgiveness.
This week, I learned about renouncing. Renouncing the enemy in your life, renouncing the stepping stones you give him to your heart, and truly letting those things go.

I have been holding on to 17 years of demonic oppression. Whether it was bitterness, anger, distrust, I mean there was a host of things. The enemy convincing me that I needed to be alone, to withdraw from people because they didn't like me, to have no faith in people. It's crazy what you let Satan do, how you yield your ways to him, and all the time your doubt grows in God's goodness.

It's crazy.

So, I've been released from that and PRAISE GOD.
Man, just praise God.
I wish I could have caught on film the presence of our good and gracious God this morning during worship. The Spirit will overwhelm and overflow your soul with thanksgiving and praise and that is just what He did this morning! Man, my brothers and sisters...just wow. Words are inadequate at His greatness.

Financially, I'm not there yet but God has his timing. The cost for the program and the outreach is 4000 euros and I'm confident in the Lord. So, I stand with arms high and heart abandoned...in awe of my Savior.

Please pray for my family.
Pray that God starts to peel back and release them from the hardness of their hearts, it's tough for them.
Pray Matthew 6:24 over them.
For this spirit of materialism to be bound and broken over their lives.

Pictures soon.
Sorry it isn't a very long update.
Je promis que prochain semaine sera mieux!

Child, you're forgiven and loved.

Topic: Repentance & Forgiveness
Speaker: Shirley Brownhill

This week our speaker is truly annointed by the blood of Christ.

I began to write as I listened to 'Forgiven & Loved' by Jimmy Needham:

"Dirty deeds have done me in, 

but that won't stop the faithful friend. 

Giving mercy once again as you Heal, 

here it is I'm feeling it...

Oh He died, He died to rectify my hopeless situation 

and His blood commands my guilt to leave. 

Now on Calvary I stand, 

empty pockets, open hands. 

Oh there is no condemnation for me. 

I tried and tried to rectify my hopeless situation, 

but I bought the lie I still have work to do. 

Now, I'm working 9 to 5 like I can earn my own salvation,

but there is no condemnation in you. 

Child, you're forgiven and loved."

How perfect is my Savior that He gives to me His surplus of grace and mercy as I need it. I began to write and as I thought of what the Spirit had spoken to me so far in the week, I selected a song at random, but not at all random to our God. Just a cool beginning to open up this post.

So we're talking about forgiveness and repentance this week and I have much to be forgiven of, but more than that I have so much to forgive. I have harbored anger, doubt, failure, depression, stress, and all sorts of things in my spirit and it has trapped my soul from being able to fully come to God and receive His mercy.

So, I'm going to share some notes of mine:

Remember when God was your everything? When you cried out for him and He came to you? Remember when you were available and vulnerable to Him?

You have been created to have relationship with God and anything else is deception.

Sometimes Christians say, "It's okay to do that sin," and it's not because it separates you from the Savior.

We are so bound by our cultures that we are ashamed by the Gospel.

The world doesn't need pity, it needs Jesus.

-----*Compassion is not compassion without action.

Illustration:

Everyone drives about 10-20 miles over the speed limit and everyone "goes with the flow" until you see a police officer or radar and you realize that you, individually, are responsible for your decision. 

That is modern Christianity, everyone "goes with the flow" of society, but then there are these moments where they remember Jesus or feel convicted over something and maybe it lasts a while or maybe it lasts forever, but we have all got to realize that Jesus is who we are compared to and not society. We can't just say, "Well...at least I'm not as bad as that guy."

We are not to mock God's grace.

Unforgiveness ties and binds you to the person that has hurt you.

We cannot translate the Word of God into something more comfortable for us.
A person who knows God looks at their circumstances through God.
Hypocrite-someone who knows the truth, but doesn't live it.
With repentance we should ask what has my sin done in advancing Satan's kingdom?
God feels broken hearted over sin.
Sin is eager to control you.
Pressure is there because you're doing what God wants you to do.
Something God gave me actually happened.
We can't afford to miss our moments.
If we get conviction and our heart doesn't follow then our heart gets hard.
Ask the Holy Spirit to reveal your heart.
Ask for forgiveness from each person you've been sexually immoral with.
Pray for purity and holiness to be restored.
When you have shame over your life the enemy has control over your life.

Don't forget where you came from. Remember that you were that someone...take the time to think about the Hand that pulled you out. Pray for me.