I have started three different entries for this week and I am just now finally sitting down to really write it.
"I'll set you as a seal upon my heart, as a seal upon my arm"
There is no where that God looks and does not proclaim it as His.
I don't want to talk about you like you're not in the room. I want to look right at you, I want to sing right to you.
You won't relent until you have it all, my heart is yours.
I thank you, God, for being a God who does not relent. Who continues to pursue us, those He loves and cherishes. Wednesday, God released me from 17 years of oppression. I began to realize and understand the vastness and greatness of God's kingdom. He has always watched my soul, protected it, saved me from peril. I just serve an A-W-E-S-O-M-E God!
This week's speaker and I got to talking when he decided to help me wash dishes and I told him all about my life and he asked, "Have you had one person in your life who has been a positive constant?" and the answer is no. The look on his face was a mix: somewhere between sheer disbelief and deep sorrow, but for me it was the beginning of the second breakthrough of being here.
The first layer was repentance right before I came and when I got here, forgiveness.
This week, I learned about renouncing. Renouncing the enemy in your life, renouncing the stepping stones you give him to your heart, and truly letting those things go.
I have been holding on to 17 years of demonic oppression. Whether it was bitterness, anger, distrust, I mean there was a host of things. The enemy convincing me that I needed to be alone, to withdraw from people because they didn't like me, to have no faith in people. It's crazy what you let Satan do, how you yield your ways to him, and all the time your doubt grows in God's goodness.
So, I've been released from that and PRAISE GOD.
Man, just praise God.
I wish I could have caught on film the presence of our good and gracious God this morning during worship. The Spirit will overwhelm and overflow your soul with thanksgiving and praise and that is just what He did this morning! Man, my brothers and sisters...just wow. Words are inadequate at His greatness.
Financially, I'm not there yet but God has his timing. The cost for the program and the outreach is 4000 euros and I'm confident in the Lord. So, I stand with arms high and heart abandoned...in awe of my Savior.
Please pray for my family.
Pray that God starts to peel back and release them from the hardness of their hearts, it's tough for them.
Pray Matthew 6:24 over them.
For this spirit of materialism to be bound and broken over their lives.
Sorry it isn't a very long update.
Je promis que prochain semaine sera mieux!