4 months ago..

"I am so blessed and thankful for your love. My name is Kortnee and I am currently a sophomore at OSU. I went to Passion last week and God completely changed the plans I had for myself. I was supposed to come back to school, work for Google this summer, and then study abroad in August for 12 months and then God happened. I remember crying and praying and confessing my sins aloud as 45,000 other believers around me praised and worshiped their God, and as I was repenting and asking God to forgive me, cleanse me, and never let me go again all the light I have ever felt in the world engulfed me. I prayed that God would show me what the next step was and that He would make whatever the decision was very clear to me so that all that was left to do would be to obey His call! And I got exactly what I prayed for! I come from a very loving yet materialistic family who does not support missions as a 'lifestyle,' but rather as a hobby or good deed. While that is hard, I fully believe in God's power and that His arm is not too short (Numbers 11:23). The cost of the program is $5100 roughly (4000 Euros) and as I walk in faith knowing that God will provide I pray that you all walk with me in prayer first and if compelled financially, too. I am so incredibly blessed and excited to pursue the will of God sans hesitation and I fully believe He is going to use me and that I will grow. May His life light shine through me!"

What an amazing reminder at what God has done and is doing. I am so happy I decided to blog about this...what a testimony. Lord, praises to You for Your faithfulness.

And thank you to all my friends who have donated money. To Pastor Cameron and the entire church family who have become my family, Callan for your initial belief in what God was doing, and all those who supported me.

It has meant so incredibly much to me.
You have held me up in prayer and in faith when even my family didn't.


Let Go

I apologize for not updating my blog for the past 8 days...there really is no excuse at all.

11 days left in London! Oh my goodness, it's surreal. A few weeks left in Europe and then back to the land of the...whatever it's becoming these days. I feel like I have no idea what's happening in America, but maybe that isn't a bad thing, I'll find out when I get there!

The week was tough: my great great uncle died, a few friends had some drama back at home, and  tension with the team.

As water reflects the face,
    so one’s life reflects the heart.
Death and Destruction are never satisfied,
    and neither are human eyes.
 Proverbs 27:19-20

I was reminded that my life is my offering to God. And I cannot be a daughter to righeousness and a friend of sin simultaneously. I must choose, I must decide, I must pick one.  Sometimes I'm tired, sometimes I just don't feel like it, sometimes, sometimes, sometimes. This week I became incredibly aware of the elitism, entitlement, and complaining that is part of my daily life. You know, that's disgusting. It makes me want to throw up understanding that there is so much more in me that God has to fix. As the verse above says that human eyes are never satisfied...that's how I feel. It's just...never enough, but I want that to change from it's not enough to it's more than enough. I need to understand that I have much more than I need and some do not even have that.

In addition, I found this new artist that I am borderline obsessed with and I was listening to a new song, 'Let Go,' and it reminded me of Michael. Just the words and the singer's voice and I completely fell apart.  Earlier this week, I had a dream about him..he was so real and it was weird! I was reminded of how sweet and real and valuable his love was for me and that is because his love came from God. So, it was healing and revealing and it helped me solidify some other things in my life.

God has truly been highlighting relationships to me. With my family, my friends, strangers...and I want to be able to love everyone. I definitely have the ability, but you know every single thing happens because of a relationship...friendships, love, quarrels, separation, marriages, wars, etc. It all happens depending on your relationship with that person. So comes the famous adage to, "Practice what you preach," so this is my challenge for my life.

This week, I also had a few conversations about praise and giving it all to God. So when someone says, "Your voice is really beautiful." I should reply that I'm thankful God has blessed me instead of taking that as pride and becoming egotistical.

I have much to say and write about, but I just don't have the time right now.

Thanks to all the people who view my blog from time to time and those who read faithfully. Keep praying for me, please. It is such an encouragement to get e-mails, messages, and to see the stats of the 30 different countries that are being impacted.

Glory to God, in the highest!