Let Go

I apologize for not updating my blog for the past 8 days...there really is no excuse at all.

11 days left in London! Oh my goodness, it's surreal. A few weeks left in Europe and then back to the land of the...whatever it's becoming these days. I feel like I have no idea what's happening in America, but maybe that isn't a bad thing, I'll find out when I get there!

The week was tough: my great great uncle died, a few friends had some drama back at home, and  tension with the team.

As water reflects the face,
    so one’s life reflects the heart.
Death and Destruction are never satisfied,
    and neither are human eyes.
 Proverbs 27:19-20

I was reminded that my life is my offering to God. And I cannot be a daughter to righeousness and a friend of sin simultaneously. I must choose, I must decide, I must pick one.  Sometimes I'm tired, sometimes I just don't feel like it, sometimes, sometimes, sometimes. This week I became incredibly aware of the elitism, entitlement, and complaining that is part of my daily life. You know, that's disgusting. It makes me want to throw up understanding that there is so much more in me that God has to fix. As the verse above says that human eyes are never satisfied...that's how I feel. It's just...never enough, but I want that to change from it's not enough to it's more than enough. I need to understand that I have much more than I need and some do not even have that.

In addition, I found this new artist that I am borderline obsessed with and I was listening to a new song, 'Let Go,' and it reminded me of Michael. Just the words and the singer's voice and I completely fell apart.  Earlier this week, I had a dream about him..he was so real and it was weird! I was reminded of how sweet and real and valuable his love was for me and that is because his love came from God. So, it was healing and revealing and it helped me solidify some other things in my life.

God has truly been highlighting relationships to me. With my family, my friends, strangers...and I want to be able to love everyone. I definitely have the ability, but you know every single thing happens because of a relationship...friendships, love, quarrels, separation, marriages, wars, etc. It all happens depending on your relationship with that person. So comes the famous adage to, "Practice what you preach," so this is my challenge for my life.

This week, I also had a few conversations about praise and giving it all to God. So when someone says, "Your voice is really beautiful." I should reply that I'm thankful God has blessed me instead of taking that as pride and becoming egotistical.

I have much to say and write about, but I just don't have the time right now.

Thanks to all the people who view my blog from time to time and those who read faithfully. Keep praying for me, please. It is such an encouragement to get e-mails, messages, and to see the stats of the 30 different countries that are being impacted.

Glory to God, in the highest!